The start of my LUCK in MARCH

This past week has been thee most difficult week for me ever!! My mom had come to visit but than left back soo quick!! She was staying with my older bro tai (if you ask me, I shouldve been the oldest), but than she left cause she felt as if she was being a burden to him. Made me soo mad!! Cause if my house didnt burn than i definitely would have my mom stay with me. I dont think my sibilings realize how much we need our mother here in utah with us!! I blame myself for all this mess, i just hate thinking about it!!

So after having such a hard week and dragging my husband ( bless his heart) in to it too...my luck had finally start to come out!!! I felt so bad for my husband, he tries his hardest to comfort me when im stressed, mad, and sad, with all these other emotions running wild! But i get so hard headed even tho i still want him to try harder in comforting me...I REALLY DO, feel bad for him! (at times!) So yesterday he comes home with 2 pairs of high heels and cute slipper somewhat of a boot that were really really cute!! but that didnt change the way i was feeling...(although i love it when he shops for me, being together/known eachother for almost 7 years he still knows my style ;) ) , so than he comes home during his breaks (cause his parents give him 20 million breaks! Working for them...lol) and suprises me with my all time favorite candy ++cHoCoLaTe CoVeReD sTrAwBeRrYs++ to die for!! Satisfied my apetite for sure, .... BUT....once again, it didnt seem to satisfy my frikken emotional feelings!! .....i know, i know, BIG TIME HARD HEADED RIGHT?? (hahahahaha) So, anyways...i end up knocking out, and he wakes me up around 8pm to tell me that his parents wanted to talk to us....(thats what i needed right? And by than i was ready to just scream my head off)....so we have our little talk and honestly....IT REALLY WAS WHAT I NEEDED!!....so me and my husband will be getting the home weve been waiting for soon...so we can be of comfort in, my inlaws even told us to go to RC Willey nd get our furnitures! (WOW SOMEONE PINCH ME, I FEEL LIKE IM STILL SLEEPING) , but the best part and what really made my day is that me and my husband will now be working on the greatest gift of all......«EtErNiTy».......the tears falling non stop!!! (by now, i wanted someone to punch me!!! To make sure i really wasnt sleeping...lol) im so grateful for my husband, to have someone do everything to keep a hard headed lady like me happy is thee best thing ever!! I guess that saying is true.......

"if you love someone so much, let em go and if it comes back than hes yours"

Ok..ok...he may have divorced me, but i did let him go....and what happened??? he came back :) and im truly grateful!! Cause our 4 handsome sons arent getting any younger, they are at a point where they understand and feel everything me nd dallin do! (also had to get that reminder again from my sis leta who has been there most of my relationship trials nd pretty much just been there for me nd trust when i say, i will be blogging about that too...lol).

Its crazy, how the lord really does work in mysterious ways! Our new stake president *elini kinikini* spoke at our ward conference, and what a strong spirit he has when bearing his testimony! He said " do u ever wonder why us parents fight so much? Its cause we arent putting ourselves ONE with the lord, all our answers can be solved thru the SCRIPTURES (ok...when he said that, i thought to myself...YAH RIGHT, tried it already, but for some reason...i felt water drippin down my face, OK WHATS REALLY GOING ON!!) Maybe he is right, maybe when i was reading, i was wanting the answer NOW instead of being PATIENT and searching diligently and pondering. So i started reading the scriptures again...and so far, so good! After all, i do want to be able to see and help my sons get to the celestial kingdom! We all make it there on our own, INDIVIDUALLY!

Im definitely excited for what the future brings me, my loving husband, and our handsome future missionaries!