Quality time with just me, my sons, and my nephews

I am one proud aunty! I love these boys with all i have! My brother Tai has 4 sons! Oldest to youngest is ««tai leka, luke, jordan, and lil karl weezy»»




These young fellas are definitely going to be some big time heart breakers! Can you believe all the future missionaries we have? And yet to come? Im so excited!




Id give anything to see these nephews of mine happy!




I get so emotional cause we only see them friday, saturday, than sunday morning theyre back with their mommy. We went from seeing them on a daily basis to only on the weekends! Its some tough stuff but im grateful for their mom! She does a good job!




I love spending time with my nephews anytime i get the chance to! Love you leka, lukey, jay, and karl weezy!

Daily Flowers For Mommy

Im always suprised whenever my husband has time from his busy schedule to bring me home flowers! Its even sweeter when my sons pick up from him and bring me flowers everyday, and i mean EVERYDAY, from my garden! Lol. Its so cute! I love it!





It all started with my son jason. Everyday he would bring me flowers and say "mommy, i got you this flower and you have to put it in your ear. Ok mommy?" Its seriously cute! No matter what time of the day it was jason would make sure there were flowers for me! I told my husband that i hope jayjay continues to do this everyday of his life. My husband laughed and said "what about his wife when he gets to that point?" I told him he better get one more for me too. ;) lol i love my lil jayjay!





Than after a couple of days, all 3 of my sons were bringing me my daily flowers! A mother like me can get used to this! Lol. I love being the queen in my home (only female) cause of things like this! My sons are just too cute and growing up so quick! Soon theyll be missionaries! Than married and teaching their sons to give their moms daily flowers! I love my sons soo much!






Soon, my son revi will be doing the same....i hope! Lol. Hes growing so quick! Maybe in 2 yrs he will no longer be the youngest ;) i love you revi!





Me and my loving husband are so blessed with our 4 sons and an angel! I love how my husband will chose a flower from the pile and put it in my ear (left to be exact, he hates seeing it in my right, nd i made sure it would never be in my left ear ever!) And along with a kiss saying "your so beautiful" lol, gives me butterflies all the time! I love my family and my daily flowers!

My kids vs their namesake

My oldest daughter...«elena riamoea tupua» 01/23/2005 (6)

my daughter was named after my husbands, fathers, only brother (ben ua), oldest daughter. I havent ever met her, but from the stories my father in law told me, that she was such a BEAUTIFUL girl! fair skin like my daughter and the eldest! My daughters namesake passed away at age 23. Which is kind of wierd, cause my daughter was born on the 23 of january and had return to our father in heaven. My sister in law (tiare olevao) had given my daughter her name, tiare was going to name her daughter, whom she was pregnant with, after elena, a name that shes always wanted to give her daughter. At the moment, taire felt that it was right to name my daughter elena instead. So im grateful for tiare and my inlaws nd everyone close to me that was there to share our daughter elenas example here on earth for 3 hrs had taught me alot!


My 2nd oldest son «daniel tepaeva tupua» 12/17/2005 (5)

This son of mine goes by dan dan. He is named after my husbands father. In so many ways they are alike! First off, they look EXACTLY alike when they were young nd still do as he grows! My father in law had shown us a picture of him at danis age and lets just say, hes definitely my father in laws namesake! Identical! (wish i could post the pic but my phone can only do so much). I really thought my son looked like my side of the family, but not after looking at pictures of his namesake when he was a child! I just cannot believe how fast hes growing!! Hes only 5 and almost up to my shoulders. I guess ill be the only queen and shorty in my family for now. ;)

My 3rd oldest son «jason tani tupua» 11/23/2006 (4)

Can you believe it? I dont have a birthday anymore! Why? Cause its now this son of mines birthday! LoL (its also one of my dear closest sisters birthday, tangi..lucky you tangi,lol) anyways, my son jason is named after my husbands only brother. We were really trying to go into labor on 11/17 so that lil jay will share the same birthday as his namesake! This one is definitely a teenager trapped in a lil kids body! Very funny and talkative! Ask him where hes from and he will throw up an E and say "im from da eastside"! JUST LIKE HIS NAMESAKE IN SO MANY WAYS!


My 4th oldest son «sione hikimava manuatu tupua» 11/18/2007 (3)

This lil soldier of mine is named after my favorite brother, sione! I really didnt want to give my son that name tho...(hahahaha), i really wanted his name to be Iverson but i guess sione will do. This son of mine WAS the youngest and than our newest edition had arrived, hes definitely not liking the fact that hes not "the baby" anymore. My son and sione share the exact same personalitys! Gets mad really fast! But can joke around like no other! Such a mommas boy (my brother actually clocked some kid in the face for saying "yo momma" lol). Always talks about how good he THINKS he looks! Stares in the mirror atleast 10 times or more a day! Its just too funny at times!! Love this lil kid!

My 5th oldest son «Revi Hama'a Tupua» 02/15/2011 (3 weeks)

This little one is our newest edition! 4th generation of a tupua!! This son of mine is named after my father in laws dads brother! Whom is still alive in tahiti. I havent actually met the guy but i hope to soon for our trip to tahiti!! My son revi is so palangi looking! If it wasnt for his black hair, youd think he was really a palangi! I guess you could say hes strait tahitian! This little guy actually let me, correction, he made me go full,term!! I have never gone full term, ever, with any of my kids! Yet this little guy still came out a small dude! Ever since hes come to this world, he does nothing but eat, poop, and sleep! Hes definitely living the life! When he was born, he had his auntys at the hospital asking to keep him. I was ok with it, but on the other hand, his dad wasnt about to ever let that happen. Im really excited to raise this young one and get to know him as he grows!!


Well..there ya have it...my kids nd their namesakes! Im truly grateful that i, as a mother, get to lead these boys in,a righteous path in one day they WILL become mommys ELDER TUPUAS!

•Pearls• Or <>Diamonds<>...

before i met my husband in high school i had been a girl about <>diamonds<>

But that had all changed when i knew dallin was the love of my life and he knew i was his! I than became a woman of ••Pearls••

It was the end of our high school year, i remember my mother in law driving me over to their office to meet up with dallin, once we pull in to the parking dallin was standing outside. So he walks over to my door side and gives me a huge hug and a kiss (honestly...it kinda scared me a little). So my mother in law gives him a box....and here i am thunking "omg!!! This guy is about to ask me to marry him....how frikken romantic!!!" (hold on now, the story gets better.....FRIKKEN HILARIOUS).....so than dallin is still standing....here i am thinking....ok this dude better ask me down on one knee....hahahaha!!! So than he opens the box...and its a tahitian pearl. (by now, im like...wth! Wheres my ring!? My proposal!? and why arent you down on one knee?!...bwahahahahaha). So than i say "wow! whats this?" (lol) and dallin says "babe, this is a pearl that my dad had gotten in tahiti, he actually chose it swimming in tahitis ocean, he chose 5 pearls!! 3 for his daughters and 2 for his sons to give to the one they know theyll be spending the rest of their lifetime with!! And so babe, im giving you my pearl." (as he was putting the beautiful pearl necklace on my neck, if u notice on my pic, thats the pearl!) I pretty much cried like a baby! Ever since than, my heart desires pearls! (tahitian pearls, to be exact ;) ) dont get me wrong tho! I love diamonds too....my wedding ring that i lost (and we wont go their on how) was my mother in laws first diamond ring....thats another tradition! (that my smartness ended up losing) it was a beautiful 1carat ring....im suppose to collect each carat anniversary ring that i get for my sons to pass to their wives. (ya i totally messed that one up) but i have kept my BEAUTIFUL tahitian pearls! So far i have 3...hopefully ill get one more for our son Revi ;) hahaha. Im definitely a succor for pearls!! i love them and will continue to cherish and collect them!

The start of my LUCK in MARCH

This past week has been thee most difficult week for me ever!! My mom had come to visit but than left back soo quick!! She was staying with my older bro tai (if you ask me, I shouldve been the oldest), but than she left cause she felt as if she was being a burden to him. Made me soo mad!! Cause if my house didnt burn than i definitely would have my mom stay with me. I dont think my sibilings realize how much we need our mother here in utah with us!! I blame myself for all this mess, i just hate thinking about it!!

So after having such a hard week and dragging my husband ( bless his heart) in to it too...my luck had finally start to come out!!! I felt so bad for my husband, he tries his hardest to comfort me when im stressed, mad, and sad, with all these other emotions running wild! But i get so hard headed even tho i still want him to try harder in comforting me...I REALLY DO, feel bad for him! (at times!) So yesterday he comes home with 2 pairs of high heels and cute slipper somewhat of a boot that were really really cute!! but that didnt change the way i was feeling...(although i love it when he shops for me, being together/known eachother for almost 7 years he still knows my style ;) ) , so than he comes home during his breaks (cause his parents give him 20 million breaks! Working for them...lol) and suprises me with my all time favorite candy ++cHoCoLaTe CoVeReD sTrAwBeRrYs++ to die for!! Satisfied my apetite for sure, .... BUT....once again, it didnt seem to satisfy my frikken emotional feelings!! .....i know, i know, BIG TIME HARD HEADED RIGHT?? (hahahahaha) So, anyways...i end up knocking out, and he wakes me up around 8pm to tell me that his parents wanted to talk to us....(thats what i needed right? And by than i was ready to just scream my head off)....so we have our little talk and honestly....IT REALLY WAS WHAT I NEEDED!!....so me and my husband will be getting the home weve been waiting for soon...so we can be of comfort in, my inlaws even told us to go to RC Willey nd get our furnitures! (WOW SOMEONE PINCH ME, I FEEL LIKE IM STILL SLEEPING) , but the best part and what really made my day is that me and my husband will now be working on the greatest gift of all......«EtErNiTy».......the tears falling non stop!!! (by now, i wanted someone to punch me!!! To make sure i really wasnt sleeping...lol) im so grateful for my husband, to have someone do everything to keep a hard headed lady like me happy is thee best thing ever!! I guess that saying is true.......

"if you love someone so much, let em go and if it comes back than hes yours"

Ok..ok...he may have divorced me, but i did let him go....and what happened??? he came back :) and im truly grateful!! Cause our 4 handsome sons arent getting any younger, they are at a point where they understand and feel everything me nd dallin do! (also had to get that reminder again from my sis leta who has been there most of my relationship trials nd pretty much just been there for me nd trust when i say, i will be blogging about that too...lol).

Its crazy, how the lord really does work in mysterious ways! Our new stake president *elini kinikini* spoke at our ward conference, and what a strong spirit he has when bearing his testimony! He said " do u ever wonder why us parents fight so much? Its cause we arent putting ourselves ONE with the lord, all our answers can be solved thru the SCRIPTURES (ok...when he said that, i thought to myself...YAH RIGHT, tried it already, but for some reason...i felt water drippin down my face, OK WHATS REALLY GOING ON!!) Maybe he is right, maybe when i was reading, i was wanting the answer NOW instead of being PATIENT and searching diligently and pondering. So i started reading the scriptures again...and so far, so good! After all, i do want to be able to see and help my sons get to the celestial kingdom! We all make it there on our own, INDIVIDUALLY!

Im definitely excited for what the future brings me, my loving husband, and our handsome future missionaries!

ToTaL uPdAtE...

Im still quite brand new to blogging....

But ALOT sure has happened since my last blog...here are a couple of new things thats happened...


1. Me and dallin are back together (yes! For thee billionth time! And may i say THE LAST!)- it sure does feel great and definitely better!
Our love is definitely stronger than we thought, or atleast stronger than i thought it was. Im just really and truly grateful for our relationship! If you dont know...me and my husband, dallin tupua, have been thru so much! We pretty much have gone thru hell (but i think i went thru deeper than hell ;) ) and back! Im just glad our love was strong enough to bring us back together...and no worries, my next blog will probably be about me and my husband, i guess ill title that one THE BROKEBOOK....(cause ya know dang well polys would never be like THE NOTEBOOK...hahahaha). Anyways, me and my husband have such handsome boys...which leads to....

2. Our newest edition, ReVi HaMa'A tUpUa, born on february 15, 2011. weighing in at 7lbs 14oz. This little man was my hardest pregnancy since ive had my daughter. Let me tell you why... Revi, is my only child so far that i went full term with. Id prefer to stick with the preterm labor tho. Hehehe...its definitely faster! But im also so grateful, this son of mine came out healthy and gave me the chance to experience the full 9 months of pregnancy! So this makes 5 kids for me and my husband but 4 living only....and all 4 are boys!! Yes, we are preparing our football team, GO NINERS!!! Lol. My husband says we will try again in 2 years....but i say....we will see in 2 years cause right now its a IM STRAIGHT!! So now we have daniel, jason, sione, and revi. These little boys mean the world to me!

3. My parents are divorced.......and thats that....i really dont like to get into that topic, MAYBE one day i will blog about that....maybe. ;)

4. My inlaws <----- let me just tell you, im thee luckiest daughter inlaw!! Honestly, i wasnt too much into my inlaws, but maybe cause i was too hard headed and didnt open up to them and didnt even give them a chance. I totally blame it on {tHe HuSbAnD} !!! That teaches me not to judge my inlaws by how my husband WAS to me. Hahahaha. But on a serious note....im truly blessed and grateful for my inlaws!! Honestly, theyve been there for me nd my sons when my parents werent being our parents anymore. Im also just grateful for my mother in laws example in being christ like along with my sister in laws, theyre faith in the lord has definitely made me stronger mentally, but physically...one day ill be on time to church instead of walking in during class...lol. It can be hard getting the boys ready while their daddy is knocked out from a long night of fai kavaing. But inlaws....im truly grateful!!!

5........ Hmmmmmm.....is there a 5? My mind might be blanking out. So ya know what that means...this is getting too long....lol.

Alright...these are just a few of the updates going on in my life since ive last blogged!! ;)

HEARTACHES

Today is what seemed to me...to be the longest day ever!!!

First off....to start my day....i found out my father is getting married! YES MARRIED! I dont even know who this lady is. Im lost for words! As if i already have soo much to deal with already! Im not sure why my dad wants to get married already, its only been almost 6months since him and my mother had divorced! In a way...i guess i will have to just accept this all in MY OWN TIMING.

Second--->>> I WAS going to work things out with my ex husband **dallin tupua**. I just dont feel that he wants a relationship as bad as i do! It SUCKS cause im giving my HEART my ALL for this man that i LOVE! but still....it seems as if hes hiding something, or just wants to please his family!!! Im hurt cause he says he >LoVeS mE<>shame~>embarrassment~>prideful~>and soo much more!!

If you couples only knew how hard it is to LOVE someone....who doesnt show the same amount of LOVE right back!!! Here's How a He makes me FeeL....aLL sOrTs Of **HEARTACHES**

1. I understand his family coming first to him! but really.....i dont EVER remember a TIME when i or my sons have ever come >>>FIRST<<< to him!!

2. saying "I lOvE yOu SiA" <====== i honestly dont know what it means anymore!! to me, its just painful!! STRAIT PAINFUL!!

3. ((LiEs)) after ((LieS)) after ((LiEs))-----> ive ALWAYS kept it real with him!! even lied to close family, brothers and sisters, and friends to keep him happy!!!

4. [[ILL BE THERE]] - i have ALWAYS been there for him!!! even when we werent together!! bent my back so far for him!! DROPPED everything i was doing ALL THE TIME to cater to his needs!!! BuT wHeN i AsK fOr SoMeThInG aS +++SIMPLE+++ as a text ....JUST to LET me KNOW hes THINKING of ME.......its too much for him to do!!! *tear*

5. ??HE KNOWS?? >>>>>>>just what to do to get back to me!!! and where the hell do i end up??? RIGHT BACK in tears!!!


{{{{{{HONESTLY}}}}}} the list of *H*E*A*R*T*A*C*H*E*S* can go O=====>N! but sometime soon.......ILL put a STOP to all this!! I dont know when!! i do know how!!........

HOW====>>> ???
with the *LORD*.........(pausing for a tissue).............

I do pray that the lord helps me find *my self* again!! All this pain and suffering....doesnt even compare to what the lord went thru for EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US.....and ME!......I just really want to know what *true happiness* really feels like!! Im so desperate for *happiness* that im not even used to how it feels like or know too much about it!! I know everyone tells me
~*~*~THE LORD WILL NOT GIVE YOU ANYTHING YOU CANNOT HANDLE~*~*~ but honestly......i dont think i can handle much more!!

In time.....we will see truly, where the lord wants me to be!!! **tears**